pressure: off
working through some stuff (same date, different journal for the details), but that hasn’t halted process and progress. and i have mostly been able to balance enthusiasm around work with external distractions and feelings of sadness. although it would be a feat to narrate it all together, i don’t want that to be the thing that hangs me up like it almost has several times before. i’ve got some ground to cover still before i can even imagine putting myself under that kind of pressure.
last week was a tough mental stretch — spotty reception. however, i don’t want that to get in the way of looking at things i’ve worked on during that time. i want to take the pressure off and release myself from feeling like i need to have things buttoned up and polished in order to be here. one: that’s not the point of this space and, two: looking at work separately doesn’t mean i’d be ignoring the introspective processing. again, this isn’t all-or-nothing…
breaking it down into smaller pieces, starting with some photos from the weekend. the minis are from our Friday breakfast walk, and the squares are from Sunday.
i like ‘em.
hey you,
remember: this is going to take time. you’ve come all this way — try not to get discouraged. the blues come around sometimes, and you’re learning how to body surf when the waves aren’t so gentle. take a deep breath… you may have to go under for a bit and tread water, but you’ll come up again. this weekend wasn’t entirely blue either — there was a lot of brightness, too. it’ll almost always be a balance, and you are getting better at being honest about how you feel and holding space for what comes. that’s nothing to slouch at.
try not to be so hard on yourself — i think this is part of the process.
listened to LA Priest’s ‘GENE’ while putting this internet thing together. me likey.
the thought just ran through my mind that i’ve been sitting on this album, saving it for a perfect time to listen, or something like that; and then totally forgot about it… until just now when i went cruising through my music library and scrolled to it. considered saving it for another time, then clicked play.
glad this was when it happened — great sound for right now. gonna give it another round…
